hump day rambles
1/29/14
sometimes i am tired of trying to make a point. because the points have been made. the connections are staring us in the face. the messages have been rewritten repeatedly.
i guess i just have to be reminded that there are people who stumble into the magic that surrounds us. that it propels them to continue exploring and asking and developing. that these necessary triggers that send us into our souls aren't being wasted on people who fail to wake from all the dreams others have created for them.
ugh...the problems of the world. how many people suffer when the suffering seems so easy to avoid.
i was thinking about pain the other day again. because in those moments i feel encompassed by a sense of sadness, it seems were i to consider the way my pain pales in comparison to the historically horrible things that have happened to human beings i would be able to laugh at myself and carry on smiling. but the complexity of the world compresses, and narrows to the idea that it isn't worth it, and that there's nothing wrong with excusing oneself from these temples of flesh.
(i have to pause here to appreciate the sound system i inherited from my father. bose speakers and loud music is a thing of beauty that i'm grateful to have.)
the point is, it's hard to feel sad when i realize how fortunate i am. and when i'm fretting over the future, i'm too focused on things i can't control. all i have is now, and all i can work with is what i can do now, and that's important to remind myself of if i forget it.
sometimes i am tired of trying to make a point. because the points have been made. the connections are staring us in the face. the messages have been rewritten repeatedly.
i guess i just have to be reminded that there are people who stumble into the magic that surrounds us. that it propels them to continue exploring and asking and developing. that these necessary triggers that send us into our souls aren't being wasted on people who fail to wake from all the dreams others have created for them.
ugh...the problems of the world. how many people suffer when the suffering seems so easy to avoid.
i was thinking about pain the other day again. because in those moments i feel encompassed by a sense of sadness, it seems were i to consider the way my pain pales in comparison to the historically horrible things that have happened to human beings i would be able to laugh at myself and carry on smiling. but the complexity of the world compresses, and narrows to the idea that it isn't worth it, and that there's nothing wrong with excusing oneself from these temples of flesh.
(i have to pause here to appreciate the sound system i inherited from my father. bose speakers and loud music is a thing of beauty that i'm grateful to have.)
the point is, it's hard to feel sad when i realize how fortunate i am. and when i'm fretting over the future, i'm too focused on things i can't control. all i have is now, and all i can work with is what i can do now, and that's important to remind myself of if i forget it.
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